Confessions

Edward in the sunlight was shocking. I couldn’t get used to it, though I’d been staring at him all afternoon. His skin, white despite the faint flush from yesterday’s hunting trip, literally sparkled, like thousands of tiny diamonds were embedded in the surface.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.260

Now and then, his lips would move, so fast it looked like they were trembling. But, when I asked, he told me he was singing to himself; it was too low for me to hear.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.260

It’s too easy to be myself with you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262

I was wishing that I could believe that you were real. And I was wishing that I wasn’t afraid.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262

I don’t want you to be afraid.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262

Would you understand what I meant if I said I was only human?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.263

I’m the world’s best predator, aren’t I? Everything about me invites you in — my voice, my face, even my smell. As if I need any of that!
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.263

I sat without moving, more frightened of him than I had ever been. I’d never seen him so completely freed of that carefully cultivated facade. He’d never been less human… or more beautiful.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.264

I promise… I swear not to hurt you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.264

Please forgive me. I can control myself. You caught me off guard. But I’m on my best behavior now.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.265

So where were we, before I behaved so rudely?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.265

How easily frustrated I am.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.265

I looked into his eyes, abruptly grasping that this was every bit as new to him as it was to me. As many years of unfathomable experience as he had, this was hard for him, too.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.265

I was afraid… because, for, well, obvious reasons, I can’t stay with you. And I’m afraid that I’d like to stay with you, much more than I should.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

That is something to be afraid of, indeed. Wanting to be with me. That’s really not in your best interest.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

I’m essentially a selfish creature. I crave your company too much to do what I should.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

It was hard to keep up — his sudden mood changes left me always a step behind, dazed.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

It’s not only your company I crave! Never forget that. Never forget I am more dangerous to you than I am to anyone else.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

So what you’re saying is, I’m your brand of heroin?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.267

Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.268

What are you asking? My permission?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269

When you walked past me, I could have ruined everything Carlisle has built for us, right then and there. If I hadn’t been denying my thirst for the last, well, too many years, I wouldn’t have been able to stop myself.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269

To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269

In that one hour, I thought of a hundred different ways to lure you from the room with me, to get you alone. And I fought them each back, thinking of my family, what I could do to them. I had to run out, to get away before I could speak the words that would make you follow…
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.270

I so very nearly took you then. There was only one other frail human there — so easily dealt with.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.270

Who were you, an insignificant little girl, to chase me from the place I wanted to be?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.271

It was unquestionably a complication that I couldn’t simply read your thoughts to know what your reaction was to me. I wasn’t used to having to go to such circuitous measures, listening to your words in Jessica’s mind… her mind isn’t very original, and it was annoying to have to stoop to that. And then I couldn’t know if you really meant what you said. It was all extremely irritating.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.271

At the time, all I could think was, ‘Not her.’
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.272

Common sense told me I should be terrified. Instead, I was relieved to finally understand. And I was filled with compassion for his suffering, even now, as he confessed his craving to take my life.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.273

Bella, I couldn’t live with myself if I ever hurt you. You don’t know how it’s tortured me. The thought of you, still, white, cold… to never see you blush scarlet again, to never see that flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my pretenses… it would be unendurable. You are the most important thing to me now. The most important thing to me ever.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

You already know how I feel, of course. I’m here… which, roughly translated, means I would rather die than stay away from you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

What a stupid lamb.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

What a sick, masochistic lion.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

It was just how close you were. Most humans instinctively shy away from us, are repelled by our alienness… I wasn’t expecting you to come so close. And the smell of your throat.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.275

He raised his free hand and placed it gently on the side of my neck. I sat very still, the chill of his touch a natural warning — a warning telling me to be terrified. But there was no feeling of fear in me. There were, however, other feelings…
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.275

The blush on your cheeks is lovely.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.275

Be very still.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276

He came to rest with the side of his face pressed tenderly against my chest. Listening to my heart.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276

I knew at any moment it could be too much, and my life could end — so quickly that I might not even notice. And I couldn’t make myself be afraid. I couldn’t think of anything, except that he was touching me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276

No one could be still like Edward. He closed his eyes and became as immobile as stone, a carving under my hand.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.277

I wish you could feel the… complexity… the confusion… I feel. That you could understand.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.277

I’ve told you, on the one hand, the hunger — the thirst — that, deplorable creature that I am, I feel for you. And I think you can understand that, to an extent. Though as you are not addicted to any illegal substances, you probably can’t empathize completely.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278

I’m not used to feeling so human. Is it always like this?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278

I don’t know how to be close to you. I don’t know if I can.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278

You’re better at this than you give yourself credit for.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278

I have human instincts — they may be buried deep, but they’re there.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278

I’ll show you how I travel in the forest.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279

Will you turn into a bat?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279

Come on, little coward, climb on my back.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279

I’m a bit heavier than your average backpack.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279

If I’d ever feared death before in his presence, it was nothing compared to how I felt now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.280

I think I need to lie down.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.280

You’re as white as a ghost — no, you’re as white as me!
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.281

Running is second nature to me, it’s not something I have to think about.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.281

He hesitated — not in the normal way, the human way. Not the way a man might hesitate before he kissed a woman, to gauge her reaction, to see how he would be received. Perhaps he would hesitate to prolong the moment, that ideal moment of anticipation, sometimes better than the kiss itself. Edward hesitated to test himself, to see if this was safe, to make sure he was still in control of his need. And then his cold, marble lips pressed very softly against mine.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.282

I’m stronger than I thought. It’s nice to know.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.283

Are you still faint from the run? Or was it my kissing expertise?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.283

He was a different Edward than the one I had known. And I felt all the more besotted by him. It would cause me physical pain to be separated from him now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.283

Bella, I’ve already expended a great deal of personal effort at this point to keep you alive. I’m not about to let you behind the wheel of a vehicle when you can’t even walk straight. Besides, friends don’t let friends drive drunk.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284

You’re intoxicated by my very presence.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284

There was no way around it; I couldn’t resist him in anything.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284

Take it easy — my truck is a senior citizen.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284

I have better reflexes.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.285